Bridesmaids Dresses: Check!!!

Finally! We've decided on a dress! Originally I was going to let my girls pick whatever dress they wanted by Melissa Sweet as long as it came in the color Atlantis. After a couple of trips to the dress store, my bm's all decided they wanted the same dress! So, we will be ordering them in a couple of days/a week, hopefully! I'm just waiting on two more girls for payment! My maid of honor will still have the previous dress, but the girls decided on MS120 for theirs, minus the black band.

On another note, I'm a little worried. I tried on my dress (the sample) for my girls while I was there. The dress fit me perfectly, which was a 8 and the same sample dress I tried on when I purchased the dress originally. When I ordered, they told me they were getting me a 4, apparently I was a "perfect" 4. I kind of started freaking out... they assured me that it will fit, and that it's only 1 inch difference between the 4 and the 8, but I'm still a little scared it won't fit. I guess I'll just have to start running and working out to lose some of those lbs!!!

Lamenting over STD's!

It seems that we're having issues with these STD's. I thought that I was saving money on my STD's by getting free postcards and doing everything DIY, rather than purchasing everything from a store or something. Now, it seems that I am having some major issues. Apparently, because of the magnet and size of my postcards, stamps are going to be really expensive for mailing. Ugh! So, now I'm starting over, and having some major issues! I just wish something would work out right!!!

In other news, Mo and Jenny have picked their dresses for the wedding! Yay!! So, here are pictures of each.

Update on envelopes

I made a quick trip to my post office today. When I first got there, the line was LONG. I thought, "crap, I'm going to have to wait for a half a hour just to make sure I can use this envelope... nice...". Well, lucky for me, there was a woman who was walking up the line asking if there were just little things that she could help out with. I asked her about my envelopes and she said that I could use them. She measured the envelope, and told me that I would have to just pay .62 cents rather than .42 cents. It ends up being about $17 more in the long run, but it's worth it so I won't have to start all over again!!! Yay!

DIY Envelopes

As I mentioned yesterday, I had to make my own envelopes for my STD cards. So, here's my step by step guide!

All my supplies:
Pencil, paper (8.5"x11"), scissors, and ruler
I laid my Save The Date's in the middle of the paper.
I folded the bottom up as far as needed to cover my STD.
Then I folded the sides in, and the top down.
I cut off the excess that I didn't need.
I measured approximately an inch from the bottom and top of the side flaps, and drew a diagonal line, then cut on the lines
Then I folded in the sides, and glued them to the bottom flap.
And VOILA! A custom envelope!!
In my previous post, I have a link for lick 'em glue to seal the envelope shut.

DIY paper QUEEN!

I decided today, since I had the entire day off and that Matt was on call all day, that I was going to start making my save the dates. Well, after a while of fidgeting and trying to get things perfect, I got it all together! Once, I figured out how I was going to do this, I was in the swing. It ended up being like a pocketfold, so maybe some practice for my invitations! Below are pictures and my step by step how to!

All my wonderful supplies before I started!!

I cut the magnet strips to my desired length
Then I attached them to the back
I started with the paper next. I cut to the desired size (because I started with the normal paper size of 8.5x11, I had to cut all the paper myself).
Then, I printed the information on the cardstock (I had two different ones. One for out of town, and one for in town guests)
Then I scored the paper to the correct folds.

When I folded the cardstock at the folds, I measured the distance for hole punches, and punched through the top.
I marked around the postcard/magnet and stuck some photo corners on the cardstock, then put my magnet in them. This is pretty much the finished product! When I close them, I tied a green ribbon through the holes to hold it together.

But once I finished, I realized that no one makes any envelopes the size that I needed... it was lovely. While trying to find a place that would make me a custom cut envelope, I came across many websites with DIY envelope tips, while they were all regarding just un-gluing a normal envelope, and tracing it on a piece of paper. I decided to try my hand at making an envelope for myself. After a couple of tries, I was successful! I even found this website that has glue for you to make for the seal! So, now I have my entire line of DIY to do for my save the dates. Hopefully I will do a couple a week, so then I can have them done in time for January, which is planned send out month. I have to say that today has been so rewarding! I can't wait to get my STD's in their hand made envelopes out!

Jewelry... CHECK!

I checked my mail today, and I was pleasantly surprised to find my wedding day jewelry! They were cheap, and everything I wanted. I got them from www.evesaddiction.com. I paid about $50 including shipping. They got here in 2 days! My necklace is a Vera Wang replica, and I have some great pearl drop earrings. They go well together, and I can't wait to try them on with my dress!!

It really is white, not yellow. The light makes it look different.

Matt and I, also, purchased our wedding rings this weekend. I'm really happy to get that done! The best thing is, the business was going out of business so Matt's wedding band was only $38. You can't beat that! Mine, however, was still a little steep. I love it, though, and I'm not going to lie that I wear it often when I'm at home (actually, I'm wearing it now).
In other news, Harper had a seizure the other day. I woke up at around 2 a.m. and found him seizing in his kennel. Bile was coming out of his mouth, and he had urinated all over himself. I thought enough to get him out of the kennel, and carried him to the bathroom but after that, I freaked out! Matt made me leave, and I started bawling. He hasn't had anything weird happen since, but I'm just praying that he's going to be done with the seizures for the rest of his life!

D.J.

Yay! Check one more off the list! We've hired our D.J. I'm really excited, too because he has come highly regarded. I only have one more MAJOR vendor to find, then I'm done hiring them! I do, however, have a couple of little one's left. Cake maker is my last major, but I'm still waiting on my friends decision on whether or not she will be around next year. My two little one's are string quartet, and a videographer. So happy to almost be done!!

Bridesmaids Dresses and a possible Wedding Planner

We have FINALLY decided on a designer for the bridesmaids dresses! I'm so excited to have it in the bag, and every one agreed upon! Now, I just need to make a trip to Chicago with all of them to find some dresses! I don't necessarily need to be there for them to pick them out, but I'd love to be included. We're going to be using Melissa Sweet, which is great because she is also the designer of my wedding dress. I'm so happy!!

I, also, had a meeting with two potential wedding planners last week. I had contacted a girl from the knot, and we had been conversing back and forth as far as a day of coordinator (a person who is in charge of taking care of things i.e. set up/tear down of reception hall, making sure vendors appear and on time, so on and so forth). While talking to them, I thought that I could utilize them for more than just my DOC. We started talking about decorations, and vendor negotiating. They are two girls who attend MSU, but they really seem to know what they're talking about! Especially one of them. She asked me a million questions, and I felt confident that they would help me pull of an amazing wedding. I, also, like the fact that they're young and will know what I'm looking for, rather than dated things that I'm sure many wedding planners try to wrap into the day. I e-mailed them today, and will hopefully be hearing from the shortly as far as price. I'm really happy with my decision to go with at least a DOC. Hopefully, a DOC plus!!

As far as my florist, I have yet to hear from him! I'm going to call him tomorrow on my lunch break to try to find out if he sent out my price quote yet. I realize that he is busy, as he runs his shop pretty much by himself, but I am worried since he told me it should be getting here last tuesday, and here it is a week later, and I still have nothing. I really like his designs and views. He's just so talented! Hopefully, I'll hear from him soon!!!

Break

It has been a crazy couple of days. All of a sudden, Matt has decided that he wants to have a mass wedding. I think it's partially because of his grandma. She suggested that we use their priest, who is also a family friend, and Matt liked the idea. When he told her that we weren't having a mass wedding, she flipped a little. She told him that she didn't know if he would preside over a non-mass wedding, so on and so forth. Well, he agreed to do it, and I haven't even ok'ed it with the priest at the church! It's a little frustrating.

I told Matt that the main reason why I don't want a mass wedding is because my dad isn't Catholic and it's unfair for him to be singled out during the ceremony. It's supposed to be about us, and the mass thing is so not me. Some fighting and arguing occured afterwards. We came to the compromise that we would see if we could individually receive communion and that way we can do what Matt wants to do, and at the same time, we won't need to have my dad singled out.
I'm still not too happy about it, though. I just don't understand why all of a sudden he wants to do a mass! I think it's mainly his family that wants it, not him. Which, if that is the case, pisses me off...

I have been on a wedding break. I started a new job, and have been constantly there. Today has been my first real day off, with nothing to do, and nowhere to go. I think I'm going to take a little break from wedding planning for a few weeks. Although, today, I did get some things accomplished.
1. I canceled my original hotel block
2. I called the church (and the priest is going to call me back)
3. I called the transportation company (but, of course like always, have yet to receive an answer)
4. Contacted my possible DOC!
I'm waiting to receive a quote from my potential florist and I'm really excited, but really nervous! I'm scared it could end up being out of my price range!!!

I think I'm going to be taking a little wedding break. Or at least not doing nearly as much as I was!

Update on Florist, and DJ meeting

This past Tuesday, I went back to my parents' to pick up Harper dog from a very long stay. I had a meeting with the florist and also a d.j. while back there. I met up with my florist, and I was AMAZED with what he came up with! I would never have imagined it, and everything he has drawn up for me looks amazing! I can't wait to go back and see some more examples he has for me. The end of September will be my next meeting! I'm so excited about my flowers! I have never seen anything like it! He talked about how he pulled inspiration from myself and my dress and my personality. I keep saying it, but I'm SO EXCITED!!!

After my florist meeting, I went to meet with a potential d.j. I went in with the mindset of "I will not be sold". I started talking to him, and I was impressed. I decided to come back and think of it some more, then make my decision in about a week. I just don't want to do the same thing I did with my florist, but I have had a lot of recommendations for this company, so I think I've found or d.j!

I'm so looking forward to getting all of our vendors finalized!!!

Yahoo!

I have no wedding related things to blog about, today, but I'm happy and excited to report that I am now employed! I had a job interview with a vet's office last thursday, and I thought it went well. I decided not to get my hopes up because, lately, whenever I have I didn't end up getting the job. Today, I got a phone call asking if I was still interested in the position! Hell yes, of course I didn't say that, but that's what I was thinking. When I got off the phone, I jumped up and down and told my family. We were all excited that after 2.5 months of being un-employed, I finally had a job. GO ME!!

Cutting Woes

We have already decided about what we will be giving out as favors. Now, my only problem is finding a way to cut the paper for those favors. We will be giving 2 in. terracotta pots, and attaching seed infused paper to them. While I was looking at different paper, yesterday, I came across a picture where the person glued the paper to a stick, and stuck it in the pot with some grass, and used it as an escort card. I LOVED it. We were still trying to figure out how to pull it all together as far as the paper and escort cards. So, I went on the search for seed paper that was cut like a flower. I came across a few sites with them, but it was ridiculously expensive for only 12! I've already found seed paper at $10 for a pack of 25 (normal 8x10) sheets. Now, I just want to find something to cut the paper into a flower cut out. I really don't feel like cutting 160 of them by hand. But, I also don't want to spend the money on those scrapbook cutting machines. Ugh... why does everything I find have to be so hard to do? Ah, the things you do for your dream wedding!

Guestbook and Angela and Andrew's wedding

I got out of the shower yesterday, and found a box on the bar. I realized that it was from mypublisher.com, and immediately ripped the box open. Inside, was our photo guest book! I thumbed through it, then thumbed through it again. I L-O-V-E it!! I can't wait to use it. Some of the pictures were kind of blurry, but not bad at all. Plus, I was happy that I found a coupon online and got $20 off my book. In the end, I paid about $15 including shipping. Now, I just have to find some archival pens!

Of course, I HAD to get a page with Harper!

Yesterday, we went to Angela and Andrew's wedding. It was beautiful, and elegant. Angela wore an amazing dropped waist, strapless gown with gorgeous beading. Their reception was in a beautiful building. The food was delicious, as she has a hard-core traditional Italian family. Just the eating took about 2 hours!! After, was all the dancing. There were a few mishaps as far as music, but everything seemed to work out in the end. They're going to Italy for their honeymoon, and I'm so jealous!!! They are such a great couple, and I'm so happy for them!

Good day

I had such an amazing day, today! Well, we've had a really great wedding week. Last weekend, we went back home and went to a different hotel. I LOVED the manager we worked with. She was so accomodating, and the price she gave us was fantastic. It was perfect for our guests.

Today, I went home to drop off Harper, and then went to a meeting with my "new" florist. He was amazing. He asked a lot of questions, and I feel like he really sees what I'm envisioning my wedding to be. When we got done, he told me how sophisticated my wedding is and everything. He said how it sounds really different and imaginative. He, also, said how he'll have some mock-ups of flowers for me in about a week and a half, then I can decide whether or not I want to book him. I'm so excited!!!!

Then, when I got back to my apartment, I checked the mail, and we got our Save The Dates!!!! They came out perfect! I just need to slap a magnet on the back, and print off the papers, and I can mail them out! We're waiting until, January, so I have plenty of time, but I'm really happy with the way they turned out!

Experiment - Dying flowers

Matt and I left for the weekend, but before we left, I took a picture of a blue spot on my mums! There were actually quite a couple on the petals, and I was really excited!!

day 2

When we returned the following day, I noticed that near the middle of the flowers, there was a blue-ish hue to the petals. There were, also, string like colors of blue on the bottom of the petals.

day 3

Today, they pretty much look the same, but I think that we need to purchase some flowers that are actually buds rather than in full bloom so there is more time to have the food coloring go through the flower.

day 4

I recently purchased a sample pocket fold from cardsandpockets.com. It came in the mail today, and it was great. They're really inexpensive as well. The only problem was that it wasn't the same color that I had thought and it wasn't the correct size for my invitations. When I went to see if I could get the correct pocket fold in my color, it wasn't available. But I didn't waste my $5 purchase! I did use it to get some measurements for my own DIY pocket folds. Here's an idea of what mine will look like, using the pocket fold that I received from cardsandpockets.com.

I, also, ordered a photobook from mypublisher.com, today. I'm so excited to receive it! It's going to be used for our guest book during the reception. I was also really happy because I found a coupon for $20 off, so I only ended up paying $10! I'll update when I get it!! yay! For now, here's our "online" version!

Aisle Runner, DONE! And e-pic album

I started our customized monogrammed aisle runner yesterday, and finished it today. It wasn't exactly hard, but it did hurt my back, bending over it all the time. I'm so happy with the way it turned out!! Pics of various stages below!!

Tracing the outline of our monogram (cold beer with me)

After I painted the green

Painting on the blue
After the blue

All Done!!!!

I left the blown up monogram underneath the aisle runner. I was scared that I would paint the wrong area on the monogram since it was kind of "weavy". It ended up pretty much being like a huge paint by numbers project. I also traced the outline with the paint so it would look smoother. It was a lot easier than I had anticipated, and I'm really happy with the outcome of it!

I've also started a small experiment as far as dying flowers. I bought some cheap mums from the store, and put them in some water with blue food coloring in it. I'll keep posted on how they're doing!

day 1

We also have our entire cd from our engagement pictures! I uploaded the majority of our favorites to here.
Password: dinaandmatt

Floral, Flower, Florist

I posted a while back about how I made a deposit of $50 at a florist recently. I thought I was happy that I got this item checked off the list, but now realize that I think I made a major mistake. I didn't do much research because I haven't heard much about florists in the area, so I just went with the floral company that I purchased all of my bouts through for h.s. dances. Now, I wish I had done some more research.

My last (and first) visit to the floral shop was a pretty nice meeting. The designer seemed to know what she was doing, and was going to see if she could dye some gerbera daisies turquoise blue. If not, she would look for some really good silks for me. She told me that the next time I was coming home to give her a call a few days before I'd be there, and she would experiment with some different options, and I could come in and see if I liked anything. Well, when I called today, she told me that the dye kept coming off the flower (which I know that Gerb's can be spray painted, I've seen them before). She then told me that there was no other option for me to get a blue Gerb. I've read a lot of different people who have cut the flower a few days prior to the event, and placed the stem in a food colored water so that the flower would then take up the food coloring, therefore making it that color. She never looked at silks, never tried anything else.

I tried to make an appointment with her for this saturday, and she just said "Well, you can come in, but I probably won't be here." I just thought in my head, "then why don't you just say you can't make an appointment this saturday?"

Once I hung up with her, I decided to call this other florist that I heard about. When he answered, he was really nice and asked a lot of questions that I didn't even think about. I'm really excited to meet with him. My only problem is not knowing how I could get my $50 deposit back from the other florist shop. I never signed a contract (which is dumb, I know) but I think it could get me out of this since I'm not binded to them other than by $50. My parents already said that they would just eat the $50 if I can find a better deal through this other florist. I'm really hoping to find something good!

E-Pics part deux

We've been blogged! I was totally excited to find out that our photographer got some of our pics up on their blog! They look great, and I'm really happy with them! Jen and Jason were awesome to work with. They really made us feel laid back (which Matt needed a lot of). And had some awesome ideas. Here is a sneak peak, and I'll post more once we get our disc! Enjoy!!

http://www.imaginz.blogspot.com/

E-pics!

Yesterday, we had our engagement picture session. We met in Grand Haven, and after a whole weeks weather forecast of rain, it ended up being quite a nice day. It was HUMID and very sticky, but no rain and some sun. My make-up pretty much melted down my face, which is really bad, but I hope she can do some form of photoshop magic to make me look fresh and wonderful. Kind of strange, though, posing in front of complete strangers. Matt was definitely nervous, and he had a hard time loosening up. Hopefully the pictures won't show that. I had a nightmare about them last night, and in my dreams they ended up being awful. I'm really excited to get them, and I'm really glad we did them. Hopefully, he'll be better in a year from now when we are at our wedding!! EEK! Will probably post some pics when I get them, which will hopefully be by the end of this week!

Florists, photog, and a church and country club

I am slowly checking vendors off the list. I have left the D.J., possibly the cake maker, possibly a videographer, and also the string quartet for the ceremony. Other than that, I am pretty much all set. I did, just recently, hire a florist. I went to the florist shop and sat down with their designer. I don't know much about flowers, so I'm expecting a lot of help here. We discussed a lot of the flowers I had/have in mind, and I showed her some pictures of bouquets I liked. She wasn't super helpful, but not completely bad. I decided to go with them (without doing much research) because there are really no other options. There is, however, one other store in downtown, but I used to buy my mom roses from there when I was a little girl and it always smelled and it was really dark and creepy looking. I just really wasn't turned on by the place, so I decided not to go. Bad idea. I went home to get my hair colored this weekend, and my stylist is getting married in September back in my hometown. We started talking about different vendors, and all of a sudden she just started raving about her florist... who happens to be the guy that works at the smelly, dark, old flower shop! She said how he customizes all the bouquets for every bride and bridesmaid. Crap... that sounds awesome. Then she goes on to tell me the price she's paying for all of her centerpieces, church decor, and all the rest of the flowers! Damn... that sounds amazing!! I'm going to try to meet with him, but I already made a deposit with the other florist so I'm not sure what to do... ugh... why am I always trying to just get things done???

A few weeks ago, I decided to call my church and reception site to ask some questions. First, I called my church. I started to ask her questions, and then all of a sudden she stopped me and asked my date again. I told her, and she was like you're not even in the book! I just told her that I called about a year ago and booked the church. I talked to the priest, and also another secretary for the church. No biggie, she put me in and I was all set. I was a little upset, but oh well it wasn't that bad. So, then I call my reception site. I called and was told a BIG surprise. Apparently, they had switched management companies and the contract that I had signed and placed our $500 deposit under was now in null. I was pissed. They also told me that we could not receive our deposit back since we signed with the other management. Uhm... and why didn't anyone inform me of this change? Later, I found out that we made the deposit 2 weeks before the change! Then, she goes on to tell me that I wasn't in the books! WHAT?!?! I DID NOT pay $500 for nothing! I was seething. I calmly ended our conversation, called my parents bawling, and they went over to check it out. Apparently the lady was quite snappy to them, but after a firm talking to by mom (surprise!) was calmed down. My parents said that it should still be ok, and that I really don't have much to worry about. Let's just hope... It's a good thing that I keep up with my vendors (or at least try to)!!

We hired our photographers, and I'm so happy! They were actually my second choice, but I'm so happy that we decided to go with them. They seem like a really cool couple, and I could actually picture myself being friends with them. We're having our engagement session next weekend with them, so we'll see how it goes!! I'm excited!!



In other news, my mom and I are talking again. It's always weird. We get into the biggest fights... hell, my entire h.s. years was one big fight... but if we just steer clear of each other for a while (like a month or so) it's as if nothing happened.

Mo is now my Maid Of Honor. I'm so excited and happy about it! She's been so amazing, and I'm so lucky to have her up there with me! Dan will still be my Man of Honor, but they'll just split the duties. She's saved me a ton of money too, since she designed our invites, save the dates, and anything else I could ask her! I'm so lucky to have such great friends!

Oh yeah, and a couple of checks off the list:
- Program layout













- Bubbles ribboned, and in the process of putting labels on









- A new set of initials for the door (bigger)









- Some of the favors

Long awaited update!

I have not been doing so well in keeping up with this blog. It has been some crazy couple of months so far. Matt and I moved from Mt. Pleasant to Lansing, and to be honest, I am not too enthused about it. I still haven't found any work, and we still really don't have any friends. I've been trying to find a way to work for my parents, but my mother has been insane lately and we're not really talking as of now. I have a lot to update on with all the wedding stuff, so I'll start from the end to now.

I went through a rut. A tiny rut, but a rut. I didn't do much wedding planning at all for a while. I did, however, sign the contract with the Baymont Inn for 25 rooms. The hotel coordinator, however, was not the nicest person in the world and I've been thinking about changing to a new person. We, also, signed a contract with a company called the Magic Bus to use a 1960's London double decker bus. It's not the most elegant thing in the world, but it's definitely different! My dad and I also went wedding dress shopping, and purchased the dress! I'm so excited, and am now starting to feel like a real bride. I have been talking with someone at the Comfort Inn to see if I can get a contract with them instead of the Baymont. The coordinator t the C.I. just seems so much nicer and accomidating than the Baymont. And since I have so much time, I'm really trying to do some DIY projects. I also think I've found a BM dress that will work out great for all my girls!

Now, another major story. This involving my mother, and why we are currently not speaking to each other. I went home about 3 weeks ago to drop off Harper for the weekend since Matt and I were going to be at a wedding for 3 days. While I was there, I asked her why she thought we were never close. I tried to open up to her a little, and actually thought I got through to her. I told her about how I understood that she didn't have time for me, but at this point in my life I really would like for her to be there for me.This is such an amazing time in my life, and of course every daughter wants to share it with their mother. Well, the conversation ended with her telling me that she would go dress shopping with me wherever I wanted to go. Later on in the week, I found a dress that I really wanted to try on, and the only place that had the dress was in Ann Arbor. I called my mom to see when she would be free, and she goes on and on about how she didn't want to go to AA because it was just too far away. She then went on saying that she didn't understand why we couldn't just go to Lansing. The fight escalated and I ended up hanging up with her. Shortly after, I wrote my dad to see if he would go with me instead. Obviously, that's what happened and we ended up buying a great dress. Once we got back home, she asked my dad how much it was. When he told her, she looked at me and said, "Well, what's going to happen if you and Matt break up?". I was FURIOUS. I just sat there for a while, but then ended up going to my room and crying. That really hurt my feelings, and after such a great day, why would she try to ruin it? She tried to act like the good mother and knocked on my door to ask me what was wrong. Once I finally opened it, I started telling her about how rude I thought it was for her to say that to me on such an important day to me. Why should she make me feel like shit when I was so elated over something I had been looking forward to for so long. Again, this argument escalated. In the end, I ended up telling her she was a horrible mom, and that I could never understand why I try so hard for our relationship when she just doesn't care. Since then, we haven't spoken. I guess we'll see how it'll go...

Visions of Photobooths dance in my head

Like I said in the previous post, I don't know if it's the weather or the mark of 1 yr. coming, but I am in major wedding mode! I have been doing so much, and researching a lot about different possibilites for the church and the reception! One of my latest thoughts has been renting a photobooth for our reception. I just think it would be a lot of fun, and it's unique! I can't say I have ever been to a wedding with a photobooth. I have started doing research, but because my wedding is pretty much in the ghetto, there is no place for me to rent from! I've looked at "national listings", but they are just ridiculously expensive. A few thousand dollars! Ah. Why is it that whenever I find something I really like that it doesn't work out??? Sometimes I just want to hire a wedding planner to do all of this for me!

First few things are DONE!

Yay! I don't know if it's the weather, or if it's the anticipation of our one year mark that has gotten me so motivated, but I have started getting some things done! I have made my 2 first DIY projects, and ordered our champagne flutes!

My champagne flutes are June Lane by Kate Spade. My next project is doing our aisle runner! I'm so happy that I'm so motivated!!





















Aisle runner like this (taken from blog www.roadtotheaisle.blogspot.com)

Fights may equal no engagement!

Matt and I got into a fight yesterday. It was ridiculous how the whole thing even came to be. We were on our way to look at new apartments, when I started talking about honeymoons.

I have always thought of honeymoons being a "once in a lifetime" chance to go somewhere (my parents went to Detroit for theirs, and I just don't want that). He kept telling me that I needed to get it through my head that we can't afford a major honeymoon. Well, on and on our fight went about our honeymoon until one thing lead to another, and it ended with us deciding not to get married. Matt immediatley turned around and went back home. It was officially awkward when we didn't talk the entire rest of the day, we live together so no running away. At the end of the night, we went our seperate ways with friends.

After many, many drinks, and a few bouts of throwing up. I stumbled my drunk ass home to find him there already, also completely drunk. I was so sick of all of it so I just broke down and started crying. He kept walking past me, calling our dog, trying his best not to say anything to me. He didn't even care that I was bawling my eyes out. I finally stood up, got in his face, and started yelling at him about how he was being a jerk and I couldn't believe that he didn't even care that I was crying! We finally started talking, and worked through our problems. It ended with him getting back down on one knee, and giving me my ring back! I'm happy that things turned out for the better, but being engaged makes fights just soooo much more bigger than needed. I did get some beautiful flowers out of it, and my favorite restaurants soup the next day!

Strangers with Candy

After my last post, I wrote on theknot.com venting my frustrations, and I was shocked to receive so many replies! I was so happy to hear that there were other people going through what I was going through. They were so supportive and I couldn't believe how many of them sent me their e-mail addresses and stuff to tell me that they would talk to me whenever I needed any advice! I feel pretty touched about the situation. I now know that I have a place to go to if I truly am feeling down!! It's weird too because I never really liked going onto the knot because they don't have a specific post for my city and the majority of the time I think that it doesn't even help me out. I always went on there for a "just in case" kind of thing. I'm happy that I was able to talk to people that knew what I was going through.

Can I get some help??

So, I am feeling like I am just ready to be done with the whole wedding thing. I am the first of all my friends to be getting married, and also the first in both families. I feel so lost in this whole process because I don't know what I'm supposed to do or when I'm supposed to do them. I have already eliminated many things from our wedding because I just don't want to deal with them, it's just one less thing that I don't have to plan for. I just wish I could get a little help here.
All my bridesmaids live out of state, and my family is not really into weddings and parties and all that jazz. We are getting married in my hometown, which is about an hour and a half away, and whenever I ask my family to help me out, they won't. So, then I end up making a special trip for one thing. Matt, also, just received a new job and is way too committed to that to listen to me talk about the wedding let alone help me plan it.

I'm just ready for the day to come and be over with so I will no longer have to deal with this planning. I am so stressed, and whenever I sit down to really do something I end up just putting it off because I get so frustrated with myself. I feel really alone in this situation right now. I always thought that when I planned my wedding, I would be surrounded by my friends and mother to help me through it all, instead I have no one but myself. I know I sound like a cry-ass, and am possibly making way more out of this than what it really is, but I just want to be married. I'm tired of dealing with all the little shit. We should just elope...

First Wedding Post!

I've been thinking on and off about writing my wedding day ups, downs, and all the in betweens. I am going to try my best to keep this blog up because I would love to look back on this in a few years and read what was going through my mind at the time. I think I would get a good laugh...

To start off, I am the first of all my friends, and my one sibling to get married. I am also completely lost in the entire mess of planning this wedding. I have been thinking sporatically about things that I need to get finished, and I do things kind of as they come to my head. My fiance is in his own world of new jobs, moving, and our future (typical guy). He is of no help in this. I am trying my best to keep my head on straight, and I will update this as problems, situations, and hopefully a lot of good come through this next year and a half! Hope to be back soon!