Strangers with Candy

After my last post, I wrote on theknot.com venting my frustrations, and I was shocked to receive so many replies! I was so happy to hear that there were other people going through what I was going through. They were so supportive and I couldn't believe how many of them sent me their e-mail addresses and stuff to tell me that they would talk to me whenever I needed any advice! I feel pretty touched about the situation. I now know that I have a place to go to if I truly am feeling down!! It's weird too because I never really liked going onto the knot because they don't have a specific post for my city and the majority of the time I think that it doesn't even help me out. I always went on there for a "just in case" kind of thing. I'm happy that I was able to talk to people that knew what I was going through.

Can I get some help??

So, I am feeling like I am just ready to be done with the whole wedding thing. I am the first of all my friends to be getting married, and also the first in both families. I feel so lost in this whole process because I don't know what I'm supposed to do or when I'm supposed to do them. I have already eliminated many things from our wedding because I just don't want to deal with them, it's just one less thing that I don't have to plan for. I just wish I could get a little help here.
All my bridesmaids live out of state, and my family is not really into weddings and parties and all that jazz. We are getting married in my hometown, which is about an hour and a half away, and whenever I ask my family to help me out, they won't. So, then I end up making a special trip for one thing. Matt, also, just received a new job and is way too committed to that to listen to me talk about the wedding let alone help me plan it.

I'm just ready for the day to come and be over with so I will no longer have to deal with this planning. I am so stressed, and whenever I sit down to really do something I end up just putting it off because I get so frustrated with myself. I feel really alone in this situation right now. I always thought that when I planned my wedding, I would be surrounded by my friends and mother to help me through it all, instead I have no one but myself. I know I sound like a cry-ass, and am possibly making way more out of this than what it really is, but I just want to be married. I'm tired of dealing with all the little shit. We should just elope...

First Wedding Post!

I've been thinking on and off about writing my wedding day ups, downs, and all the in betweens. I am going to try my best to keep this blog up because I would love to look back on this in a few years and read what was going through my mind at the time. I think I would get a good laugh...

To start off, I am the first of all my friends, and my one sibling to get married. I am also completely lost in the entire mess of planning this wedding. I have been thinking sporatically about things that I need to get finished, and I do things kind of as they come to my head. My fiance is in his own world of new jobs, moving, and our future (typical guy). He is of no help in this. I am trying my best to keep my head on straight, and I will update this as problems, situations, and hopefully a lot of good come through this next year and a half! Hope to be back soon!